The journey you’re on is a process, I’ve been carrying for over ten years. Only now does it feel as normal as brushing my teeth. There are still millions of things I want to learn, this is like being a doctor. You never stop practicing and you never stop learning and patience is vital.
Think about it this way, you didn’t furnish and decorate your house in a day. It probably took months to have everything you wanted in just the right place and comfortable enough that you could do anything in your home with your eyes closed.
Concealed carry is going to feel strange, but ask yourself daily, why am I carrying? Don’t rush the process, if you can, carry at home, but please know the condition your firearm is in. I carry in condition one. One in the chamber cocked and locked 24/7/365 in accordance with my states statutes.
For my wife I left a sticky note on the mirror so she could learn what condition the weapon was in and how to clear the weapon.
I’m guessing your state is not a “shall issue” state, hence the wait for your permit! Most “shall issue” states must issue within 90 days.
If I’m right your state is a “may issue” state. Don’t be surprised by the time it takes to acquire your permit, there are some “shall issue” states that are intentionally slowing things down for law abiding citizens.
As far as open carry, if you’re not built like Arnold Schwarzenegger, keep your weapons concealed.